Not all breast cancers present themselves as a lump in the breast. I have breast cancer and I’ve never had a lump.
I only ever had a bit of a wonky boob. After my second child was born, one boob went back to normal size but the other one stayed a bit larger. Nothing major, no one else would notice. But it was different to my norm. When my son was eight months old I went to my GP, we joked about how boobs go a bit wonky after two children. She referred me onto BreastCheck in CUH where I got the all clear. Fast forward another eight months, I went back to work after maternity leave and left our two kids in the care of the most amazing childminder Helen, or St Helen as I call her. Ronan and I we were saving like crazy trying to buy a house and life was good
Another eight months later, I was at a Christmas work event where i wore a beautiful red v-neck dress. But it was a bit low and I was really conscious that I didn’t want to look too booby, so I kept my posture all night. In my head I would say, for goodness sake this fecking dress, too booby. But the thing was it wasn’t too booby on one side, one boob was perfectly fine, it was the other that was a bit glamour modelesque. After months of coasting along that dress brought attention back to my wonky boob again.
Back in the office the next morning, my colleague (who is also my best friend and maybe an actual LIFE SAVER) and I were chatting about the night and even though I had a ball, I said I’m never wearing that bloody dress again because I was so conscious of my boobs, or boob to be exact. Straight away she said, “Call the GP and get it checked.”
“Ah ha, I’m ahead of you because I’ve already done that, and its perfect, just a bit wonky.”
“Get it checked again,” Alison said in a strong enough tone for me to take her seriously.
So I called the GP and joked that you’d swear I’m looking for trouble, and you’ll think I’m a hypochondriac coming back again with something that’s perfectly fine, but…
Within a week I was diagnosed with Stage 3, Grade 3, Invasive Lobular Breast Cancer, Her2 – ER+, PR+.